Why does it matter that I am so insecure about myself that I can't confidently do anything? I second guess every decision I make. Is my job good enough? Is my work ethic good enough? Am I doing a good enough job with my kids? Am I a good role model? Am I a good enough wife? Am I ugly? Am I too big? Why am I not attractive enough? Those are just some of the questions that I ask myself over and over. These uncertainties are the things that tear me apart and keep me from being able to be confident.
I heard about affirmations before but didn't think it was serious. I thought it was just a scam to get sad suckers like me, that want more out of life, to spend money on wishful thinking. But, it's the opposite of that completely. It's really awesome. The power of intention is a very real thing.
I have a bad habit of allowing what other people think of me impact the way that I think of myself. I publish videos on YouTube and you wouldn't believe the things some people say. I have been told things like I am ugly, disgusting, fat, stupid, and so many other things that are too painful to write here. Those are the things that play over in my head so much that I just can't get past it. These people can pick up on all of those things about me by watching a few short video clips?
I try to get away from it but I just can't. I get my hair, nails, eyebrows, and lashes done up. I get new outfits and shoes and with all of that combined, I should feel great about myself. At least feel confident in the moment since, I put so much on it but, I don't. Feeling like I am good enough is a goal of mine that I struggle with on a daily basis.
It's to the point now that when I am given compliments, they are hard to believe, hard to hear even. I graciously accept with a smile and thank you but, there have been so many times that my own snide comments towards myself slip out of my mouth. It's such a vicious cycle. Sadly, it's easier to believe how hideous I am than believing I just might actually be pretty or desirable in any way, for anyone. Most importantly, to myself.
My weight fluctuation hasn't helped either. It's impacted me emotionally most of my adult life. It was acceptable when I was little. Oh, those chubby cheeks or here come thunder thighs. It was thought of as a cute compliment when I was little, the chubbier that a kid is the more cared for they are, I grew up in a different time. I didn't know that it was funny and I was being teased. I knew everyone was different and that was ok. It was when I got older that I was judged so harshly by my peers. Those comments have stuck with my over 20 years and have gradually grown into the voice that dictates my whole existence. There is so much hopelessness and sadness in that.
I have heard my kids judge themselves and I know it's because of the horrible things I say about myself. They hear it, think it's acceptable, and redirect it to themselves. Thinking that my beautiful babies could ever look at themselves in a way that isn't 100% positive is heartbreaking. I have got to break the cycle.
I want to feel worthy and accepted. I want to feel desirable, I want to have a confident feeling about myself physically, emotionally, and financially. I want to quit talking myself out of living a happy. I have got to get to a point in my life that I can love myself too.
That's why I chose to do the Thought Catapulter Magnetic Manifestation Tool review. When the opportunity came up it took a while to say yes. I did some serious research on what it was, is there a success rate in it, is it a waste of time or a distraction from real-life matters? The more I read the more excited I got to get started. By the time the package came in the mail, I was about in tears that hope, self-help AND hope were actually in my hands.
This basic set comes with everything I need to get my way of thinking turned around and get the positive vibes flowing in my life. It uses a magnet and cards as the tools.
The set comes with the pouch and Abundance Affirmation cards, blank cards, magnet, elastic strap, and printed instructions. Before I go too far into the review, if you have a pacemaker or medication pump, this is not for you. You can choose other ways to use these tools instead of wearing the magnet.
Additional card sets include:
Abundance (Supplemental)
Health (Physical)
Health (Emotional) Group 1 (Abandonment/Rejection, Emotional abuse, Physical abuse, Sexual abuse, Addiction, Anger, Anxiety/panic, Betrayal/unworthy/self-loathing/undeserving/wrongly judged, Boundaries, Codependence/overgiving/self-conscious, Guilt, Blaming others, Shame/concerned about what people think/provoking jealousy)
Health (Emotional) Group 2 (Depression, Despair/hopelessness, Disconnected/isolated/alone (unable to fit in), Disrespected, Feeling empty, Feeling frozen/stuck/suppressed, Feeling vulnerable, Grief, Indecision, Jealous)
Health (Emotional) Group 3 (Judgemental/quick to judge, Lack of Confidence, Lack of Discipline, Lack of Focus/lack of concentration, Lack of Organization, Lack of Memory, Low self-esteem/feeling not good enough/feeling not ready)
Health (Emotional) Group 4 (Lack of success/feeling like a failure, Loneliness, Lost, Obsessive-compulsive/OCD, Paranoid, Perfectionism, Procrastination, Regret/re-thinking past events, Resentment, Sadness, Self Sabotage, Things never work out, feeling sorry for myself, Time Management)
Health (Emotional) Group 5 (Trust issues/mistrust/unable to trust, Unappreciated, Unheard, Unsupported, Worry)
Relationship
Weight Loss
Deciding on which cards you would like is a totally personal process. You will want to assess your current situation. Address the concerns you have with yourself and the goals that you want to achieve.
Understanding The Process
This isn't a quick process. It takes time to help yourself redirect your thoughts and seeing results. It took a lifetime to get where you are and the longer you work with the Thought Catapulter Magnetic Manifestation Tool the better results you will see.
For me, I am about 10 days into the process. It's so weird that I find myself thinking about it more and more every day. At different times of the day, I remember what the cards say and what they mean to me. I'm noticing that instead of thinking about the past issues I was having I am thinking about possible outcomes. I am even seeing myself in a different light. I am focusing less on the physical me and more on the emotional, inner me. Yes, I know what this sounds like. I feel like I sound like an infomercial. It's kind of funny to say out loud. It's funny because it is actually working.
I have started the weight loss pack. I only weigh myself when I have to so, from the day I opened the box until now, I have lost 2lbs. That may not sound like much and it could very well be a coincidence or my digestion working. But, I believe this is because of the Thought Catapulter Magnetic Manifestation Tool. I am going to continue using this set until Thanksgiving (at least).
If you are looking for a positive way to get positive things happening in your life, try out these simple affirmations.
Check out the Thought Catapulter on their website and social media pages to see what they have to say and what others are saying.
I received this product for free as a gift to facilitate this review. If you have any questions or personal comments that you would like to share, please feel free to email me directly.
Amy Groves- [email protected]
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